The Other Blog

Standing in the Rain

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 15:11:16 +0000

I spent hours in the rain, feeling the water slide off my skin, like the thoughts of you that I wished would do the same. Memories of you cling to me like the sweat on my summer skin. So I stood in the rain, eyes closed, face turned up to the sky. Streams of crystal water slid down my face, mingling with tears, dropping from the tips of my beard. Somewhere in the distance, life went on. Toads were rejoicing, and frogs were mating. None of my emptiness mattered to the world. Everything was alright. Somewhere beyond my limit of vision, a rainbow peeked blushingly out from behind the clouds, taking its first look at a wet world, watched loving by his father, the sun. I think I heard it’s mirthful squeal of excitement. I wonder if I might ever find this world as wonderful as the rainbow did. Birds chirrup loudly, and I’m sure I hear their songs. For once, the cars were quiet and human life came to a stop. No one was shouting, no one was yelling. No one was fighting or glaring in dislike. No one cared about anything but keeping themselves dry.

When I opened my eyes, I saw blurry hues of green and blue, speckled with the dull brown of the mud. It took a while to wipe the water and the tears from my eyes, and a little longer to wipe my glasses. But in that one moment when I put them on, I felt my breath being taken away. Here I was, in solitude, with no sounds to hear, but the melodies of nature and the voices in my own head and heart. For a few minutes, the voices were silent. I was absorbed, I was but a mere thread in the fabric of life, and while I stood surrounded by the truth itself, it reached out to me. I am but a mere thread in the fabric of life, and life is eternal. I am eternal. Everything I do, everything I touch, everyone I meet is a part of me, and I am a part of them. We are all different, and yet we are one, and we are all eternal. There I stood, finally finding the peace that eluded me for days.

The rain abated finally, and the clouds parted lovingly for the sun to smile at me. I smiled back at it, my first smile in days…since you’ve been gone. I pick a fallen flower; so gently it lay on the soaked ground that it reminded me of you, lying gently and peacefully under the surface of the earth. But today, for the first time since you went away, I am at peace. I lay the flower gently back on the ground where it belongs, for in the end, everything must return to where it came from…even you.

Protected: “Terrorized by the Imperfections”

Mon, 21 Jul 2008 16:45:52 +0000

21

Mon, 19 May 2008 20:06:20 +0000

I’ve been 21 for a little over an hour now. The twentieth day of May lies generally in the heart of Indian Summer, the kind of summer that is capable of taking life away.

I’ve been writing for years now, and I’ve had many sources of inspiration. My misfortune has been that most of the time, that source of inspiration comes not from within me or my world. It comes from the world’s perception of me. I must write better. I must impress others. I must be the best (or at least among the best). There was a point of time once, I think, when I would write because I wanted to write to please myself. Now I write to show others… when did things change?

I’ve been pondering about my writing, and my writing reflects on myself. Have I ever lived or done things to please myself rather than please others? When did I stop? Why? … who am I? Myself, or an amalgamation of the ideas others have of me?

Far away, I hear thunder. The nineteenth day of May, 2008 has been extremely hot. But the night rebels. The night rebels in tune with the rebellion rising in my heart. I have to find myself. The wind picks up speed, coming in cold and heavy from the open window diagonally across me. It brings the sound of thunder… in the heart of summer, it brings the smell of rain.

The Night Train

Fri, 08 Feb 2008 06:51:28 +0000

Don’t close your eyes!
Look up at the moon,
the stars, the night sky,
the auroras blushing - shy.

Open your eyes,
or miss the night sigh,
the sound of sleep,
of satisfaction deep.

Now close your eyes,
Come aboard the night train,
Hold me by your side,
Take me beyond time and ride,

Watch colours come to life
by the magic of your smile,
We’ll fly over orange streams,
in the night train of dreams.

———

Originally written 17-Jan-08

One

Sun, 13 Jan 2008 17:51:31 +0000

So glad now of being alone,
befriending my mind.
I thrive here in my solitude,
watching music dance.
A troupe of tail-lights outside my window
Dances
To the music in my ears,
to the rhythm in my soul,
and the spring in my step.
I was one when I arrived,
searching for love.
I wonder if I’ll ever find it,
yet know,
When I go, I will still be
One.

Dusk 3

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 18:15:31 +0000

The sky can’t seem to decide whether it’s night or day. It lingers in a blue-grey haze, being neither azure day, nor inky night… and yet, a bit of both. The tip of my pen dances joyously over the page, words springing forth mirthfully. My thoughts condense calmly, crystal clear in a mind at peace. Yet my eyes can barely see these little glyphs of love come together in the darkness…

Is this how we live life? In the shadows, we write our own lives. Yet we barely see what we’ve written until we’re done and have reached a place of light…

Dusk 2

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 17:52:08 +0000

The sun has almost set. The day is done, physically and mentally. So glad now to be secluded from the outside world, my earphones being my accomplices, a Wishlist in my ears. It’s becoming almost too dark to see what I’m writing. We pass cars and motorcycles, all insignificant. My thoughts are random, rambling, and they frequently come to rest on you - you, sitting 2 rows of seats in front of me. The sunset is beautiful… knock knock, can you hear my thoughts? … No, there you go.

White

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 17:37:27 +0000

Once upon a time, way back in high school, her smile was the brightest smile I knew. To me, she was the colour white personified. She was evrything pure - the horn of a unicorn, the bugle of truth, the cape of decency… I always counted her among my closest friends. I never thought anything would change. She’d always be that perfect someone I always looked upon with decency and almost brotherly love.

Yet, look at us now. Even an online hug goes unappreciated and unallowed. We haven’t kept in touch at all. When I see her online now, and say hi, an air of formality and social etiquette descends on the conversation window. Why must I have to think twice about saying things to you? I never had to do that before…

Things change. Fuck it. Fuck the world.

Shadows

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 16:24:56 +0000

Silence is common to us all,
We speak from the shadows,
With words polite, movements proper,
Yet no one hears intention…

We reach out and touch each other,
Who do we truly feel?
We speak of breaking down walls,
Only to fortify ourselves further

Afraid of being in the light,
We stand in the darkness, naked,
Flawed, we attempt to hide our scars -
A masquerade of character.

Serendipity has brought me to you,
From a voice unheard, I hear your words
A thousand ways can love manifest
And you’ve given me love anew

Disrobed, I see my own scars,
Unafraid, I embrace the light
I conceal my defects no more,
These imperfections make me real.

All I need now is a touch, true,
A single word, truly meant.
I am no longer afraid of being myself
To enfold you in my arms is now all I desire.

The Show.

Fri, 21 Dec 2007 11:17:26 +0000

My screams echo off the silent walls, yet all I hear are whispers, sobs and sniffles. Agony takes a seat in the second row, compassion occupies the front row. Ecstacy, now stained, takes a piteous seat at the back.. Pain, no stranger, smiles as he takes my hand. Welcome, all, to the story of my life. The show has begun.